I don't really understand myself, for I want to do what is right,
but I don't do it. Instead, I do what I hate.
I have always been an expert at self sabotage. Whatever the project, if it’s not going well and I don’t have a
clear vision of its success, I’m apt to abandon it if abandoning it is an option. The fear is that I might fail, and
I’d had so many failures through the years that I’m anxious to avoid any more if possible. But that fear in
itself is a set up for failure. The New Testament concept of this scenario falls under the category of “missing
the mark.” Unfortunately, missing the mark is also one of the many definitions of sin. There are times when I’
ve felt that the Apostle Paul was a little out of touch with reality, but in the instance quoted in Romans 7:15
above, he seems pretty normal to me. We don’t do the things we know we should and we’re quite talented at
doing things we know we shouldn’t.
The truth is, when we fail to reach our goal in whatever form that takes on, we’re apt to blame circumstances
or people or anything other than ourselves, yet it’s really something within us which has failed, not the
pressure of an outside influence. Correcting the propensity for abandonment, then, necessitates
reconstructing our mindset. We are our own master, or something along that idea. The people who have
always gotten the media attention whether today or in the 16th century or in Biblical times are the ones who
have accomplished something against all odds. We human beings seem to respect that.
What do you bet God does too?